This is not an established philosophy; this is my experience at this moment in my life.
And this is a story about desert seasons.
When you are in the desert:
- You don’t see where the great, dry expanse ends and life begins again.
- You don’t feel you have access to enough to sustain you.
- You feel you have to take it day by day to be able to hold onto hope.
- Your resolve rises and falls in the same way your pathway climbs steep and winds down low before you.
In the scriptures there is this link between the desert and the number 40. The Israelites spent 40 years in the desert; Yeshua (Jesus) spent 40 days in the desert. This pattern is repeated like a tapestry throughout the story.
One of the earliest forms of writing was in the form of pictographs. A pictograph is a pictorial symbol for a word or a phrase. Often, the pictograph would also be linked to a number. In Hebrew, the letter MEM is linked to the number 40 and its pictograph looks like the following:
This pictograph (and therefore the letter mem and the number 40) symbolise WATER or CHAOS.
The intriguing thing is, as I have already pointed out, in the ancient scriptures, deserts are linked to the number 40. And number 40 is linked to the letter mem, symbolising water. Why is this?
Bear with me.
I am going to make a long story short right now.
Yeshua (Jesus) was tempted in the desert 40 days by the devil (don’t be offended by the word devil. If you want, understand it as evil; or the root of deception; the opposite of the force of love). There were 3 things the devil (evil; force to remove love) wanted from Yeshua:
- To command stones to become bread so he could eat.
- To throw himself down from a height to see if God will send angels to catch him.
- To worship the devil (to choose evil and selfish ambition) in exchange for being able to control all the kingdoms in the world.
What is the essence of what the devil was trying to say here? “If you’re hungry, make your own bread! If you’re feeling disenfranchised by God, test His limits to see if you will get your own way! If you don’t have what you want, do an exchange and you can get it!”
In other words, “You are suffering in the desert, you can’t see the end from the beginning, you don’t have enough to sustain you, you are holding on with all you have to your last little bit of hope so TAKE MATTERS INTO YOUR OWN HANDS.”
But Yeshua refused to do this, why?
Well this is how I see it right now. I think He knew that history is the story of mankind taking matters into their own hands in order to avoid dealing with the repercussions of the desert season. Mankind took matters into their own hands because it was easier to do that, then to trust God in the desert season. The problem with this is that it foiled the plan. It foiled the Creator’s plan.
Are you in your desert season? Does it feel like it has been 40 days, 40 months…40 years…of waiting, not seeing, not understanding, not feeling fulfilled, not feeling whole, confused by the ups and downs, confused by your never-ending perception of the landscape?
Well, I am there. I’ve been there. Are you there?
Do you remember this?
Mem
40
Water or Chaos
History reveals a pattern of mankind in the desert, choosing to take matters into their own hands and the end point being chaos. Selfishness, pride, greed, pain, betrayal. Fear. The opposite of love. Melting slowly into chaos. Call it organised chaos if you like, but chaos nonetheless.
There is another option. To want to take the path less travelled by. To want to believe that there is water in this desert picture. And that the journey is not so much about reaching the end point of the vast expanse of ‘not understanding’, but rather seeking the water that comes along, hand in hand, with the season. The water that so few in the past have dug for.
One more thing, why the water? What is water?
- 60% of your body is made up of water, mostly held in the cells of the body.
- Water is a polar compound known as the “universal solvent” for its ability to dissolve many substances.
- Water flows and moves; it is not static.
- A human can only live 3 to 5 days without water.
Could this mean:
- You will know where to find the water in the desert as easy as you know your body, its likeness is already held within you.
- The water is the antidote to the chaos, it dissolves the components of your inner chaos (resulting in less outer chaos).
- Water is not made to remain in one place forever: put your hope in that.
- Water is life.
So.
May we embrace the discomfort of the desert season.
May we seek the water in faith instead of relying on ourselves in fear.
May we take the journey of water instead of the course of chaos.
And, one day, may we say: Deep calls out to deep at the sound of Your waterfalls; All Your waves and breakers have passed over me.
(psalm 42 v 7).
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John 4 v 7 – 13
When a Samaritan woman came to draw water, Jesus said to her, “Will you give me a drink?” (His disciples had gone into the town to buy food.)
The Samaritan woman said to him, “You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan woman. How can you ask me for a drink?” (For Jews do not associate with Samaritans.)
Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.”
“Sir,” the woman said, “you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his livestock?”
Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
Psalm 42 v 2
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When shall I come and appear before God?
Psalm 23 v 2-3
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters; He restores my soul.
Isaiah 43 v 2 – 3
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.